reuben

2011-10-15T08:17:00.001+08:00

funny how the previous post could be applied to different people right now.

and i hate this, these fucking changes,

i'm up early on a saturday morning, having breakfast with mummy as i'm typing this. it kinda feels great to be up this early. like it is nice to enjoy the beautiful scenery and breathe in the fresh morning air. taking it all in and leaving all worries behind. the day has just begun and there's so much to look forward to.

6 more months to ord. can't wait! and for those who ord earlier than me, stop it ah don't make fun of me hahah my time will come!

and i can finally use blogger on this ipad. but the site is unresponsive wtf?!? like i got to tap several times on a link before it responds. like dumb sia. and typigng on here feels a bit weird cause i'm so very used to bb's qwerty. whenever i wanna type , . ! ? My left hand will automatically look for an 'alt' button o the left side. the same goes when i'm typing on the computer! OKAY I LOVE MY BB VERY MUCH K YOU GOT A PROBLEM?!!

chill chill.

take a step back and enjoy the wonders of this beautiful mess. life is too short to hold grudges and hate.

life's good thus far. or at least that is how i want to see it to be.

2011-05-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

it is funny how people change. change for the better and for the worst.

seasons change, people come and go. fact of life.

but i hate this fact.

not.thinking.too.much.

fuck distance, be here now.

2011-04-30T16:59:00.002+08:00

why is this world such a scary place? Help mummy, i'm afraid.

i have always wondered what the world would be like if Adam and Eve did not eat that fruit back in the Garden of Eden. how different would the world be as we live in harmony with God, man and the environment? what would we be like, pure and without sin? maybe we would even be perfect versions of ourselves. there would be no hatred, jealousy, guilt, shame, evil and greed. instead, there would be love, joy, peace, harmony and we would live to the fullest. well, just a thought.

anyway i've been following the General Elections quite a bit and it has been really interesting with all the opposition parties standing up against the PAP. Also with all the flaming and accusations and rumours circulating on the internet, it has indeed kept me quite engrossed. A pity i can't vote in this coming GE, gotta wait for another 5 years! (or maybe less, hmm)

approximately 49 weeks to the end of NS. to be honest, the first year passed pretty damn quick and nevertheless i have learned much. i have met people i never thought i would meet, from different backgrounds and education. it is an amazing world out there, yet scary too. it is scary how people behave and what their character and personality are. it is like, some people are just fake and they might backstab once the opportunity presents itself. sigh, i really miss the simple and straightforward school life. mundane yes maybe, but it was much simpler and getting good grades and forming friendships was all that mattered.

deadmau5 this coming friday!! OHHH YEEAAAHHHH. GONNA BE AWESOMELY FANTASTICO (;

i can live without you but without you i'll be miserable at best.

2011-02-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

i got my driving license today. i feel awesome (:

2011-02-07T21:37:00.002+08:00

came home this evening and mum asked me how my day was.

i wanted to reply "like fuck" but decided to keep quiet and gave a small smile instead.

sigh.

2011-02-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

super duper long since i've blogged here but hardly anyone reads this anyway haha.

2010 was one crazy year. new environment, new people, new friends in the army. and i'm pretty sure i wasn't the only one going through shit.

after several months in NS, i've come to realise that no matter where we are, we all go through shit, just different kinds of shit. i got to quit complaining and comparing. i got to adapt, survive, change, improvise and be contented with whatever little i have.

maybe life's like that. we're all in a pool of shit, swimming around and struggling to survive. some do, and some don't. and yet some manage to get out of that pool of shit and live in great contentment. okay this is getting shittily disgusting ahahah and i dont know what i'm talking about.

looking back at 2010, i wished that some things happened and some things didn't. but these wishes are futile now, aren't they? however right now i do know for sure that certain things had gone according to God's plan, and so will the things and circumstances that will come. come whatever may, i am not afraid.

anyway, 2010 ended on a happy note and 2011 has been brilliant so far. everything has been going on smoothly except for some bumps here and there. the usual politics and arrows and shit, working with people whom i never thought existed, power struggle and more shit, sometimes i just want to hide away. find a corner on this earth and just be with my family and bestest friends. this may all just be a dream, but sometimes dreaming is good cause reality is just too harsh.

so, the past few days of Chinese New Year have been fantastic! dinner with family, friends, lazing around at home and sleeping in. friendships of 7 years and counting, fucking love you guys!

14 more months. i can do this.

can't wait to start university and graduate in 2017 (which is absolutely far away ): )

ciao!

2010-08-16T20:56:00.003+08:00

well hello there. how are you?

a long and tiring day you must have had at work. head back home and it's more work. family? you'll just leave them at one side. completing the report before tmr's deadline is way more important than spending time with your loved ones. work's done. everyone's asleep. weary and worn out indeed. you change out and switch off the lights before heading to bed and get your much-needed rest. before long, it is morning and another hectic day at work awaits.

is this the life you are living? day in day out, life revolves around work, work and more work. what about family and friends? aren't they way more important than work? all money in the world can never buy family love and the deepest friendship.

okay, i was bored. duty is boring. but i aint complaining. the DO is watching tv right now, he has been doing so for the past 3hours i think. haha.

i miss my friends. it's like they're a country away but in fact they're only a phone call away. the guys are in the army. the girls are starting/has started school already, new environment, new friends. sigh.

i'm listening to Dream Theater as i type this post. they're awesome.fantastic.brilliant.magnificent. simply unbeatable. such immense talent in this 5 man band.

indeed music has always played a huge part in my life. i love music, this wonder that God has created. the different frequencies and pitch of sound blending and mixing together to create 'music' and the singing voice of a human which not a single instrument can ever replicate and reproduce. and as technology advances, people start to explore the different ways music can be made and altered, as well as using it for multiple purposes.

anyway. it is august the sixteenth. one year ago, i was studying like crazy for my prelims. tuition, revision papers and night study. repeat.
honestly, it seemed like it was only yesterday that i had my prelims.

Team Slayers, we got to meeeeeeeeet please. it has been way too long. any of you reading this say 'AYE' !

monday has come to an end.

are you ready for the weekend?

2010-07-25T21:42:00.002+08:00

3 letters.

ORD.

every NSF is looking forward to their ORD date. some coming soon, others still a long way to go.

my ORD date is 180412. (and the guys in my unit would tell me to print 2 calenders before i can ORD. HAHA)

every weekday morning i wake up and the routine repeats. breakfast. shower. rush off to camp. do stuff. bookout. home. and sometimes go out at night. weekends come and go. money down the drain. and then it's monday again and the routine repeats.

not that i'm complaining about the comparably slack army life that i have, it's just that i need a new meaning to my life right now. something to do. something to look forward to (other than the weekends). maybe here's a chance, to do something good for once. a chance to pay back to the community. to volunteer my arms and legs for the less privileged and the disabled, the young and the old, the tired and the weary, the lost and weak and those who need a second chance in life.

a chance to do something for God.

for the past 19 years i have taken my privileged life for granted. it's like i'm in a bubble. my own bubble. the friends i grew up with, the environment i live in, all trapped in this bubble. and i've yet to taste or get a glimpse of the outside world and the society outside this pathetic bubble of mine.

serving in the army has in some way brought me out of this bubble. i've met different people with different backgrounds. not the usual friends that i've known for the majority of my life.

army is just the first step. there is still university and finally the workplace and the society outside.

rather than saying that army is a waste of time, i shall look on the bright side of it and learn and grasp the uttermost out of it. meanwhile, with the spare time that i have, i intend to utilise it to the fullest!

ORD lo!!!!

(long long way lah)

2010-07-05T23:19:00.002+08:00

considering the lack of updates, i doubt anyone reads this space any more.

well anyway, my life has been pretty simple and easy. let's just say that my army life is quite different from most guy's. it is indeed slack and confirm-wont-die but meanwhile it is a freaking waste of time. the only thing i look forward to everyday is seeing my retarded friends in camp and doing nonsense every now and then. hahahaha.

i want to quit the army! and start on architecture please, oh damnit. srsly cant wait to learn architecture!

dajie is leaving for Shanghai in about 2 week's time. she'll be heading there for internship. sarah's going to china too. leaving in september and will be there for 5 weeks. hmm i'll miss them much ):

19th birthday is coming this sunday. i dont know how to celebrate it. not that it is something significant. i want to celebrate with every single one of my friends cause i just miss them ): especially the guys. sigh, army.

i'm tired.ishouldsleepnow.

2010-04-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

Psalm 139

¹ O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

⁵ You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, ^a]">[a] you are there.

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

¹⁷ How precious to ^b]">[b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

¹⁹ If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

For this i have Jesus (:

one and a half weeks of civilian life. gotta make full use of my time! that means stop sleeping late and waking up late arrrghh. cant kick this habit.

cant wait to enlist into the army. finish it asap! slug it out for the government. well, soon to be MY government. gonna bid goodbye to Malaysia and switch over to singapore. so no more blue ic ):

anyway, congrats to those who POP this week! enjoy working for the govt for the next 1.6 years or so. i shall be joining you soon hahaha

2010-04-01T16:29:00.002+08:00

hahaha hello there. it's been a last time since i last blogged.

well my life is pretty mediocre and everyday is such a bore. except for random outings and movies here and there ahaha. srsly cant wait to get into the army and slug it out for the government. not physically though. hahah i mean like, how hard can 5half days of bmt be? i'll have to train up... for area cleaning whoohoo. area cleaning and saf core values ftw hahahaha wtf man.
i just want to get my ass into the army asap, finish it and get on with my studies!

speaking of which, i've applied architecture at nus i hope i can get it please please. and mechanical engineering at ntu. yew dog, i mean yew tong applied for archi too! it'll be great if both of us can get in and we'll be course-mates for 5 years!

the arsenal-barcelona game this morning was just fantastic. football played at its best. definitely. hahaha. anyway, i hope man united wins the league again yay yay. and the champs league too! gotta beat bayern munich . gogogo!!!

Happy April Fools' Day!

2010-03-18T20:43:00.002+08:00

i want a Holga 120N!!! and tons of film. heeee

oh. and i cut my hair bowl-shaped today (:

2010-03-11T17:16:00.002+08:00

aye sorry for the lack of updates. well not that anyone reads this anyway. haha.

so results came out last friday aye. didnt do so bad, but not that good either? congrats to those who did well and for those who did not, fret not k . it aint the end of the world. life has to go on. put the past behind and move into the future that awaits us all.

cant decide on a uni course yet. aint gonna take business or fass. so its either engineering or mass comp or design. haha i think design school appeals more to me. i want to study at nafa or lasalle, doing something that most wont do maybe like doing music or arts but i doubt i'm good enough ):
hmm, architecture seems pretty interesting. my parents are encouraging me to take it up as they say its an excellent course. but its a 5year course due to the need of attaining a master's and there's interview at nus! DAMN SCARED OF INTERVIEW.
parents willing to send me to me australia if i cant get into nus. studying overseas seems really funnn hahaha. i love to be independent and alone. but expensive ya and i dont want to burden my parents

oh well. studies aside, life has been pretty mundane. keeping myself occupied with books. i just love reading haha. on a side note, i need a job? not really into the money but i just want to get out of my hosue. haha but i'm lazy to work. someone send money from the sky tyvm ^^

enlisting into army on 19th april. i just want to go in and complete asap and get my ass out wahahha.

L4D2 realism anyone?

2010-02-23T16:04:00.003+08:00

yikes, have not been blogging for quite some time. hahaha. anyway just a quick update ya

MUSE!!!

THEY WERE ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC
THE LIGHT EFFECTS WERE STUNNINGLY BEAUTIFUL
THE CROWD WAS AWESOME
BEST NIGHT EVERRRRRRR

Kudos to Saoson and Rise Against for putting up a great show as well!

went back to Malaysia for CNY! met up with aunties uncles cousins whom i only see once a year. hahaha.

last monday, dinnered at Swensen's at J8 with naren, colin, keane, grace and ted! headed to naren's house afterwards and xavier joined us. PS3 and movies! stayed over

oh, had a bbq at uncle's place on sunday with relatives. whoohoo at a great time hahaha.
and since there were so much leftovers, i had the same food for lunch and dinner on monday. hmm, imagine eating the same food for 3 consecutive meals. hahahaha

my hair's getting longer by the day, yay! i want Bruno's hair by the way (minus the dye). hahahaha

2010-01-28T23:41:00.002+08:00

i.am.emotionally.unstable.

and i have a strange addiction to apples.

2010-01-25T20:41:00.002+08:00

i saw my guitar teacher yesterday. or rather, my former guitar teacher. it was certainly a coincidence. his appearance hardly changed since i last saw him a couple of years ago. as usual, his huge guitar was slung over his shoulders and both hands were carrying plastic bags filled with guitar books.

he taught me the guitar when i was in sec1/sec2. and he really made an impact in my life. back then, i started gaining interest in the guitar and thus i picked up the old acoustic one i had at home and played around with it. learning a bit here and there from the internet and friends.

upon seeing my interest, my mum decided to sign me up for a guitar course in the Community Centre and hence this was how i met my (former) guitar teacher. he was very patient and taught me several skills, techniques and songs.

as such, he built a strong foundation in my guitar playing and further spurred my passion for the guitar. however, due to time constraints i dropped from his class after covering a substantial amount of basic skills.

even after stopping the guitar lessons, i continued playing the guitar, picking up songs off the internet and constantly practicing and improving my techniques. soon, i picked up the bass guitar through my church and the techniques i've learned through guitar-playing certainly aided me in my bass playing.

looking back, i am grateful for this teacher for without him, i wouldn't be where i am today.

i know i'll get through it. i know i will.

2010-01-17T17:21:00.005+08:00

pause for a moment. and think about your life. think back to the important events that happened in the past.

now what if these events didnt happen. or it happened differently. say, you did better in a certain examination or you met somebody you never knew.

would your life right now be different? would you be a changed person? or maybe you wouldnt be a position you are in right now and life could be tougher. or easier. definitely maybe.

if you could get a glimpse into your future, seeing yourself some 10 years down and knowing how your life would turn out. and let's say your future aint so good. no car, no house, broken relationships, no job. poor. would you do anything to your life right now to prevent these from happening? or would you rather carry on with your life without subconsciously thinking about the future and leave your life in the hands of a higher power up there or some would prefer the term, fate?

what if...

these thoughts often run through my mind. somehow. subconsciously. though i very much believe in a God, an almighty being who has control over my life, i sometimes wished my life would be different. in some way or another. for the better of course. but then again, if these events which will make my life better were to happen, would i be where i am today? would i have been a different person? would i have done things i never did before? would i have relationships that i have right now?

if the world crumbles around me,
would You be there to keep me safe?

2010-01-15T20:07:00.002+08:00

so, my last update was eons ago. hahahahaha

a thousand and one things has since happened. i cant remember everything but i'll just try to put everything down here.

A levels ended on 23d november 2009. really thank God for seeing me through each and every paper, every single minute, every moment!

celebrated the end with a bang haha. it was L4D at serrangon gardens followed by drinking with the guys at far east rooftop and we went crazycrazy hahaha.

well anyway its just awesome that i wont be touching books or studying for at least the next 2 years! yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaahhhhhhh

hmm, got a job at a japanese restaurant in Robertson Quay. the people there are really nice to work with and i just quit anyway haha. earned quite a bit but nonetheless, the work experience was invaluable.

the month of december was pretty ordinary 'cept for PROM AND POST-PROM which was awesomely excellent to the max hahahaha. really great to dress up and took tons of photos.

Christmas was spent with family at Changi Boardwalk hahaha which was quite niceeeeeeeeee just to be with my family and taking photographs.

the holiday at Taiwan was awesome too! the weather's nice but i think its too cold for me ah shucks. hahahaha. but anyway, had a grrrreeeatt time there cause the food's nice and we just kept eating and eating and eating and eating. hahahaha. the sceneries were beautiful. photos on FACEBOOK!

spent the NEW YEAR over at Taiwan. not out on the streets with the crowds. something different this year. well anyway, 2010 is here and its been looking gooooood so far hahahaha and i'm pretty damn sure the rest of the year will be excellent.

so that pretty much sums up what's on my mind right nao though there're still millions of thoughts in my head which can't be expressed in words and there're some things i just want to shout it out but i just dont know how and i dont know what words to use to describe such thigns and emotions.

Avatar is definitely one of the best movies i've ever watched. absolutely definitely. no doubt about it.

2009-11-03T18:58:00.002+08:00

fuck, A levels start next monday. must do damn well seriously. must must must!

the thought of not doing well is scaring me shitless. sigh.

and i'm so damn sick of studying already ): ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! ):

chao outside mudafucker! HAHAHA

2009-09-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

today started off with sleeping at 4am and then waking up at 10am hahahaha. ugh, shouldn't have slept so lateeeee.

anyway, woke up and the Aloysius came over cause he was bored at home. it was just great sitting at home and talking about anything and everything.

after lunch, it was down to Holland V to slack and waste time. its just so awesome not feeling any stress. and Aloysius went to play poker while i headed down town to meet up with Naren, Xavier and Germaine to watch Gamer!

the movie is really gooooooooood. and and Michael C. Hall is so handsome!! HAHA

after the movie was hanging and walking around. hmm home and then dinner and slack. yeah this weekends would be a break followed by continuous hard core studying when school starts! mmhmm.

i dont need you.
all i need is Jesus. and my family and friends.

tonight everyone agreed,
i was wrong about you.
i told them you were being so strong
i knew you were a liar
i knew you were a liar from the start.

2009-09-18T01:39:00.001+08:00

prelims are over in the blink of an eye. time really passed by quickly. i hope i can do well. but A levels are more important. so dont fret if any of you out there didn't do so well for prelims! there's still a month plus to A levels. its make or break people so please study hard! just this once and we're through. we can do it together. gogogo (:

anyway, i've got The Resistance today! its really awesome.

go get it if you have not! they're really good.

hmm i'm hungry. need. food.
the long weekends are here. a much needed break.

i've learned that love is not about giving up, but its about holding on to the very end.
i think i did.
did you?

2009-09-17T14:00:00.001+08:00

437 days. the end. goodbye.

2009-09-09T19:47:00.001+08:00

hahahaha what the fuck man, studying. that's all i'm really going to care about right nownownow. i'll study so damn hard my brain will bleed hahahaha.

anyway B&J's Chunk Fest this saturday! i want to go!

2009-09-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

many things have happened. many things have changed. i'm just typing down whatever that's in my mind right now. we should not dwell in the past, for it is the future that awaits us. but it is important for us to understand the past so as to prepare ourselves for the future.

ugh. there's so many things i want to say. so many things that i want to let out from the inside of me. fuck i hate this feeling.

anyway. the past week of prelims has been stressful. chem and math paper were hard, and they're my 2 best subjects! geography was worse. GP and econs are okay but everytime i feel that way, the marks i get will be really horrible. rawr.

why do i care more about how others see me than how God sees me ):

2009-08-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

i saw this and i thought its quite funny...

What is love?

Mathematician:: Love = 1/0 (undefined)
Physicist:: Love is the force of attraction between two hearts.
Biologist:: Love is produced by the hypothalamus.
Chemist:: Love is the saturated solution of feelings.
Philosopher:: Love is consupiscience to rationality.
Programmer:: Love is a bug of everything.
Meteorologist:: Love is the rain, binds together earth and sky.
Emo:: Love is hatred.
Writer:: Love is the perfect word for similes and metaphors.

2009-07-04T14:44:00.002+08:00

so after a month of hardcore studying (well, sort of), exams are over in a matter of 3 days! time really passed by real quick. hmm. and the long weekends are here! and then its back to school and getting back our results and then preparing for prelims and A levels. oh dear.

anyway. i can't wait for Up to be screened in cinemas here! i think i've told almost everyone i've met hahahaha. its really hilarious!

haha. it'll be an awesome weekend. a much-needed break.

2009-06-05T11:43:00.002+08:00

june holidays is here! but studying, here i come ):

anyway. i'm like addicted to CiWWAF!! they're awesome (right, Nat?). and i've listened to their latest album, Rotation, three, four times already! hahaha

2009-05-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel really bad. sometimes i hate myself for who i am. sometimes i question myself for what i am. i dont know. it makes me angry. it makes me sad. i dont know why. i hate that part of me. i hate myself for being that way. i hate it. sometimes i dont really know why i'm wired that way. sigh. if only there is a remedy for this poison.

i'm sorry God, for blaming You. i am specially made, by You.
You're perfect

i'm not.

first time in a long time i've updated
probably also i felt this sad.

2009-03-28T14:42:00.002+08:00

hmm. Common test results were not very good i think. only math met my target of C. the rest were D, D, S and S. ugh, got to work harder!

anyway. Alfresco yesterday was awesome. thanks everyone for making the effort to come down and help (: i'm sure you all had as much fun as i had.

i'm going to make the great escape one day.
i promise.

will you join me in unison as i bring forth this vendetta?
because ideas are bulletproof

2009-03-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

Sorry ):
i really hate it when we quarrel

2009-03-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

everything that i do,
everywhere that i go,
reminds me of you.

off for science camp tmr. hope it'll be fun and slack. hmm.

it hurts me to see you sad ):

2009-03-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

today marks the end of common tests! ah i'm so screwed ):

geog and econs were disasters cause i didnt really study for them. i found GP alright. Chem was hard even though i put in a lot of effort for it. humph.

and math today. omg ): what's worse than having your GC spoiled before the paper starts? 6 marks gone cause i couldnt plot graphs to answer the questions. uggghh!

anyway, lunch with classmates after the paper (:
watched Push! i think its a really cool movie. hahaha i like the superpowers that the characters possess. and Dakota Fanning was awesome. i like the part where she got drunk! hahahaha.

mmhmm i'm tired. march holidays are here! yay. a great break

2009-03-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

suddenly dont feel like studying anymore! rawr

hmm. long day today. chem tuition at orchard. learned alkenes for the 3rd time hahahaha. next, church worship practice. and followed by econs tuition with ying lun at clementi which was super productive to the max cause i learned in 2 hours what was taught in 5 lectures hahahaha.

shit common tests starts on monday and i'm so so screwed. i hope i remember to bring my fulscap pad hmm.

anyway. got a Dog for chinese. yay yay yay. no more chinese!!

i want to watch Watchmen.

let's take what hurts and write it all down
on these paper walls and these empty house

2009-03-02T21:31:00.002+08:00

i can't bring myself to hate you

i may have failed but i have loved you from the start

2009-02-28T18:37:00.003+08:00

i really trusted you. i thought you had changed. but seems like i was wrong.

they say change is the only constant. guess it doesn't apply to you.

maybe. ignorance. is. a. bliss.

Rockafella last night was excellent. thanks Val, Grace, Clarine & Vera for the flowers!

(:

3 words: God is awesome.

oh yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAREN MENON. you're the man

2009-02-20T19:25:00.002+08:00

"Life is short, so learn from your mistakes"

when you pulled me close to your side
and held me tight,
did you mean the 3 words,
as you whispered them into my ear?

THE ROBOT by Michael Mack

upon the stairway of despair,
complete with broken love affairs
and promises that never came,
but faded with a touch of shame,
a pretty girl with golden hair
and innocence so sadly rare,
strove to keep her head above
a way of life devoid of love.

feeling pinned against life's wall,
she chanced upon a robot tall
and said, "please come and share with me
whatever fate has deemed to be.
im through with love, done with chances
spirit crushed by past romances,
just be a friend in word and deed.
thats all tht i shall ever need."

"there's not too much from me to learn,"
remarked the robot, in return.
"emotions do not form a part
of my cold, solid-steel heart.
whatever maker fashioned me
did not permit my circuitry
responsiveness to love or pain
your thoughts for me would be in vain."

"no matter", spoke the maid. "no more
do i wish passion to explore.
be someone i can come home to
when my exhausting day is through.
count yourself a well-worn shoe
a friend that i can slip into
protection from a stone cold floor
for this i ask and nothing more."

agreement made, he took her hand
and lived the life that she had planned,
always willing, not demanding,
aiding her with understanding
he made her smile with humourous wit
as his restrictions would permit
and, bit by bit, she came to feel
that he was more than iron and steel.

"i love you, robot", she at last
replied when several months had passed.
"your strength and quiet dignity
have brought a wondrous change in me.
no more do i feel all alone,
and pray you must be flesh and bone.
deep-set emotions you MUST feel
within that outer coat of steel!"

"if i were able, i would say
im sorry i was made this way
but my design and programmation
does not provide for that creation
of feelings normal men may feel
that were not born of iron and steel.
i told you all this once before.
you have no right expecting more."

"go then!" cried she. "i will not live
beside a fiend who cannot give!
though i be battered by misuse,
misguided trust and strong abuse,
at least the men i chose were real
and had the power to love and feel.
of all the lovers i recall,
you are the cruelest one of all!"

the robot, indestructible,
continues freely and at will.
emotionless, apparently,
but, bearing closer scrutiny,
one can see a small tear streak
down that cold, metallic cheek
as i reflect upon my life
that lovely lady was my wife.

that robot, of course, was me.

i'm sorry i wasn't perfect enough for you

school's been fun. Naren's hilarious as usual and our absolute nonsense killed the boredom in lectures and classes. hockey guys are fun tooo. hmm today's PT was slack max. Mount Rosie+around school. hahaha. common tests in 3 weeks' time. got to seriously study. mustdowellmustdowellmustdowell!

oh! and Rockafella too. yupyup cant wait for that (:

a great weekend i hope. ciao!

2009-02-17T19:37:00.003+08:00

thanks all (:
dont worry i'm good.

and thanks be to God for all that He has done.

God is good all the time and all the time, God is good (:
May Your will be done for everything goes according to your divine plan.

i love you, Jesus. You're my king. You're my brother. You're my friend.

You're my all.

2009-02-15T20:13:00.004+08:00

this is when it ends.

but i dont want to ):

whywhywhy

Love is PATIENT
Love is KIND
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
IT KEEPS NO RECORDS OF WRONGS
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always PROTECTS
always TRUSTS
always HOPES
always PERSEVERES.

2009-02-15T15:07:00.003+08:00

i love you. but do you feel the same way?

2009-02-14T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

2009-02-06T21:53:00.003+08:00

sigh. this week really sucks to the max. i cant wait for it to be over. hmm.

girl, you've got me confused
make me spin head over heels
and you're the only one i know
who can shield me from this cold

2009-02-02T18:40:00.003+08:00

I can't control my tears
the sound of teardrops pleasing to the ears
Nobody's perfect
but really, little from you i expect
It's just a random thought
for me to think about
And tonight,
i scream my lungs out loud

no word of thanks or whatsoever. i sometimes really feel that way. sigh. maybe you're right Keane, just maybe.

2009-01-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

1. Where is the person you want the most now ?
Her house

2. Where will you be 2 hours from now ?
At home

3. Last kiss ?
About 1 hour ago

4. Does your ex miss you ?
I don't think so

5. Does anyone love you ?
Ya

6. Can you make yourself sneeze ?
Yeah

7. Has your ex moved on ?
Ya

8. What are you doing tomorrow ?
Church. Tuition.

9. Are you easily confused ?
No

10. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband ?
Maybe, I guess

11. Where were you at 9am this morning ?
Sleeping at home

12. Do you fall for people easily ?
No

13. Everything happens for a reason ?
Ya

14. What does your last text message read ?
Hey my one got astig. Yup. Thanks alot.

15. What are you listening to right now ?
Someone else's voice (hint: hot babe)

16. How was your week so far ?
Great but tiring

17. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't ?
Yeah.. Maybe

18. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again ?
Ya

19. Do you sleep with the TV on ?
No

20. Are you too forgiving ?
Ya

21. Have you ever wanted to be a firefighter ?
Yupp

22. Do you still have pictures of you & your ex ?
No

23. Who do you miss?
Your mom

24. What was the last thing you put in your mouth ?
Saliva

25. If you could have any car what would it be ?
Mini cooper

26. What are you stressed about ?
Studies

27. Do you have anything in your pockets right now ?
iPod and wallet

28. How many windows are open on your computer ?
I'm not using it

29. In the past week have you gotten sick ?
No

30. In the past week have you gotten your hair cut ?
No

31. Who was your last call from?
Val

32. What can't you wait for ?
To get home

33. What do you do most of your time ?
Breathing

34. How much clothes do you have in your closet ?
Not alot

35. On a scale of 1-10 , how good is life ?
8

36. Will you and your ex ever get back together ?
No

37. Do you think you'll be a good mother/father ?
Yes

38. Are you high-maintenance ?
No

39. Do people hate you ?
No

40. Do you trust your best friend ?
Ya

41. What's your pets name ?
Don't have any

42 . If you could change one thing about yourself , what would it be ?
My weight

43. Where is your father ?
At home, I think

44. Does the person you love know you love him/her ?
I hope so

45. If you could tell him/her one thing , what would it be ?
Today was great (:

2009-01-08T12:01:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry i cant be perfect. sometimes i feel so worthless

2009-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

twenty-oh-eight was a great and eventful year, full of ups and downs hmm! the year passed by superduper fast. it felt like orientation1 ended last week or something hahahaha. anyway, JC life is extremely different from secondary and it took me some time to adjust. lectures and tutorials and school ending at five in the afternoon! the people and class were different too. cliques seemed to be the in thing. everyone seemed to have their own clique of friends. being in a co-ed school is different too.

lectures and tutorials were either fun, boring or i have exactly no idea what was going on. mid years came and did rather poorly. decided to study hard for promos which were really important. meanwhile, i joined hockey as my cca (cause i dont know what else to join hahahaha) hockey trainings were tough but fun. made a couple of new friends there.

promos came and past. did quite okay. enough for promotion. pw and chinese As flew by as well.

then came the holidays, finally. batam ocip, mawai, holiday at phuket were funnnnnn. hahaha. the holidays were spent slacking mmhmm.

well, to end it, 2008 was a splendid year. i hope 2009 would likewise be the same (minus the A levels!)

2008-12-30T18:02:00.003+08:00

i think. i think. a man's most prized possessions are his ego and pride. and of course, his girl. (if he has one. hahaha) or maybe this applies only to me. hmm.

anyway, continuing from where i left off. sunday was church in the morning. and slack in the afternoon. went over to terence's house with best buddies jeremy and ying lun for dinner and stuff. hahahaha. watched newcastle-liverpool match and played Hearts. homed.

hmm. yesterday was pretty fun. woke up and headed down to bukit merah to meet Val. lunched and then Ikea. walked around randomly. hahahha. she went to vivo while i headed down to town to meet colin, michelle and dorothy! hahhaha had a massive catch-up session and the Gloria Jean's outside cine is the best place to spy on people. hmm!

new year's eve tmr! its gonna be exciting. hehehe pinic at botanic gardens with jeremy and ya. hahahaha

2008-12-27T17:43:00.002+08:00

an eventful week i guess. stayed at home on monday to study hahaha. tuesday was out with her to study and then twilight! haha. the movie was okay but the company was better (:
headed to ps for dinner at hot tomato express which was okay. and and there were so many people in town. ugh. and i think i have slight claustrophobia haha. cause i felt pissed and tired. hahhaha ah well. anyway homed and all. met michell gwee on the bus home hahaha. what a coincidence.

wednesday was a boring day.

hmm. thursday was Christmas day! merry christmas to everyone! church in the morning and then tuition (ugh) in the afternoon. after headed down to meet her. passed her present. hehe. hmm. went down to esplanade and met grace&keane. hmm. dinner and then homed.

friday was down to town with her to change the cob album blooddrunk cause i had that already hahaha. anyway, couldnt get it changed at the gramaphone at cathay so headed to taka and we managed to cause the lady at the counter was nice and all haha yay. anyway, got cob's Tokyo Warhearts live in japan 1999. yay got all their album haha.
headed to library after that and borrowed a book. homed. and dinner with some church friends that mum&dad called over.

today. went down town for tuition. met mum after that. lunched. and then down to church. and then came home. hmm!

2008-12-22T13:58:00.008+08:00

anyway, i'm back from Phuket and church youth camp! yay both were excellent.

alright, 4 days and 3 nights at phuket was funfunfun! though my sisters and mum found it a bit boring. hahaha. i loveeeeee the beach (not cause there're bikini chics!). well the beaches are great. the sand is white and smooth. the water so clear you can see your own feet and the sand in it.

the hotel was pretty good. i like the ambience. haha the thing is, there're many caucasians so i felt kinda inferior? hahhaha.

the first day was nothing much. just walking around and eating. hahaha.

the second day was fun. we took a speedboat tour around the islands which was great. swam and stuff. visited some caves. pretty cool.

the third day was touring the city and small towns. did some shopping too and bought a small bag. haha

the fourth day was free and easy again. took the taxi to patong beach and went to this mega shopping mall there. lunched and walked around then headed back to Kata beach where our hotel was. left phuket and flew back here. home sweet home (:

alright pictures!

the diameter of this pizza is slightly less than an arm's length

yeah thats all the pictures.

now onto youth camp!

the camp was great. i love the place. its at Singapore Vision Farm which is at a secluded part of lim chu kang. hahaha. well, the camp was fun. the sermons meaningful and i was glad that everyone had a wonderful time together (:

Christmas is coming. i remembered when i was young, i hoped that i would get a lot of presents and my sisters and i would compare who had the most number of presents. thinking about it, Christmas isnt about presents. it isnt about santa claus. it isnt about decorations. it isnt about meeting up with friends. what then is Christmas about? Christmas is about the birth of Jesus. The Messiah. the one who was sent to earth to seek and save the lost. the one who died on the cross for the sins of all mankind. Christmas, is about Jesus. i love you, Jesus (:

2008-12-22T12:49:00.001+08:00

RULES: Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry. How you do the Letter Meme: Dear (the last person who sent you a message): I don't really know how to tell you this, but __1__. I think I realized it __2__ __3__ and I saw you __4__ __5__. I'm sure you're __6__ enough to understand __7__. I'm returning __8__ to you, but I'll keep __9__ as a memory. You should also know that I __10__ __11__. __12__, -Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton Fish- In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's your favourite colour?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - me

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-eastWorried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water - Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - F*** off now
France - In Pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

[After doing the quiz...]

Dear Val: I don't really know how to tell you this, but i'm in love with your sister. I think I realized it when i threw up in your closet and I saw you sit on me. I'm sure you're high enough to understand how boring you are. I'm returning your love letters and the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep your mum as a memory. You should also know that I told my confession today about cocain abuse. Greetings to your frog Leonard, rooooooo!

HAHAHA

2008-12-17T13:00:00.001+08:00

seventeen december two thousand and eight one o'clock in the afternoon

i love you

2008-12-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

oh. did i tell you? i've got an ipod. yay. thanks to mum and dad (:

the holidays so far have been quite fun. about a month left till school reopens. sigh. time passes by so quickly. its time to start studying. like seriously. i should revise everything i've learned this year. and make sure i understand the concepts well. i want to do well next year. like, i'm aiming for at least Cs in all subjects for CTs and at least Bs for mid years. haha seem quite impossible but never mind, i'll try.

anyway. i'm going off to Phuket this friday. and coming back on monday. yay i cant wait. i think its gonna be really fun. i love beaches. and ocean. haha. and i think my mum said the hotel is right beside the sea. yeah but i'm having mixed feelings too. sigh. 5 days of not seeing or talking to you. rawr.

hmm. life's been great. but i'm becoming more and more lazy. humph.

alright. time to stop slacking now. off to study!

2008-12-05T21:19:00.006+08:00

alright! i'm back from Batam and Mawai. what a week! both trips were excellent and fulfilling.

Batam trip was funfunfun! the hotel was excellent and it was great bonding with the class. the fun part aside, the trip was satisfying. not only did we help the orphanage and the school, we also learned many other lessons. like, the kids there are really poor and the living conditions aren't so great and comfortable. but they're still really happy and contended with what they have. and and, they were especially happy when we arrived!

we didnt do much on the first apart from checking into the hotel and good food for dinner, we visited the orphanage in the afternoon. hmm. bunked in with Naren, YuHeng, Raymond and Edmund (from ODAC) ! and, Raymond watch alarm rang when i was about to sleep and 15minutes later, Naren's phone alarm rang! ugghhh!

the 2nd was more productive i guess. breakfast in the hotel and then down to the orphanage to work!
yupp. we got ourselves organised. some did painting while others did plastering of the walls. yeah. i was in the fixing windows group but the windows didnt arrive so i went to do plastering instead. whoa, tough work i tell you. cause its quite hard to get the cement even and all. worked on the windows in the afternoon. hmm... after work and stuff, played with the children. soccer!! barefooted. haha. i tell you, those kids are really damn gooooood seriously. they can run up and down barefooted non stop while my feet hurt like crazy.
next, we headed to a shopping mall for dinner! and did some shopping too. bought a couple of shirts. damn cheap. hahahaha.
back to the hotel. wash up and all. and night time was playplayplay. hahahahaha

3rd day was more or less the same. painting and a bit of plastering. haha. but i was kinda slack dont know why. and the orphanage organised a closing ceremony for us. it was nice and heartwarming. mmhmm. we were sad that we had to leave so soon. sigh. dinner at the hotel. and night time was playplayplay again . hahahahaha. its like a party i tell you. and and, the night was the best i've ever had. cause it was spent with you. i love you

4th day! packed up and checked out. shopping at the mega mall! pizza hut for lunch was damn cheap tooooo. hahahaha. ferry back to singapore and bussed home. yup!

all in all, the trip was a good one. we worked hard (in the day) and played hard (in the night)!

next up, Mawai!

group4! people are from t31 and t32. and hansel, aloysius, gabriel and michael and me! fun people and fun-loving people (:

anyway. Mawai Eco Camp is a damn nice place. its really natural. surrounded by trees and river. we slept in open area. like, on top of a pond. its really cool. its pretty warm at night but gets really cold in the early morning. and there are frogs. like, a lot of frogs. and they croak damn loud at night. and, there're no electricity there so its super duper dark at night. quite scary.

hmm. first day was spent at the swamp. swamp trekking was fun! saw quite a lot of stuff and learned a lot about plants and all. at night was star-gazing! omg the sky was fabulous. it was totally filled with stars. a lot a lot of stars. and we were very very lucky cause we saw, a cresent moon, venus and jupiter side by side forming a smiley face and this occurence is really rare (according to tan hoe teck). so yup, it was really beautiful.

second day was audeline trail. it was a short trek around the area. learned more about history this time. cause, that area was the last line of defence for singapore against the japs. and there are many army bunkers around. after the trail was lunch. and slacked for an hour? haha. afternoon was water stuff. raft building which i did before in sec2 at ACE camp. and we did the water obstacle which was really fun. firefly cruise at night was fascinating.

day three was climbing up the hill. its called Gunong something. haha. it was raining heavily in the morning but we still at to climb. i was feeling damn cold . so cold that i kept shivering. haha. the view up there was fantastic. it overlooks the South china Sea. going downslope was tough cause its pretty muddy and slippery. went down and then back to the camp. washed up. dinner. and then camp fire minus the fire. it was just the 4 groups gathered in the cook house and each group suppose to present a short item about Mawai. yup it was quite fun and hilarious hahaha. last night sleeping with the frogs!

fourth day. bid farewell to Mawai! bussed to some shopping mall in Johor. lunched there. hmm. bought Dunkin' Donuts toooooo. came back to singapore. met Val and Grace in school. and then down to Far East for Slice (with Keane too)! homed after that. ahh, finally. home sweet home.

well. that sums up the 2 trips but the experience i gained and the lessons learned from it are priceless and i cant pen them down here.

2008-11-30T20:15:00.003+08:00

i'm back from Batam! and so are we (((:

and i'm off to Mawai tmr. its somewhere in Johor. hmm. hope it'll be a fun camp! gonna blog about Batam and Mawai when i come back on thursday i guess.

I never thought that I could be so satisfied,
Every time that I look in your angel eyes.
A shock inside me that words just can't describe,
And there's no explaining.
There's something in the way you move, I can't deny,
Every word from your lips is a lullaby.
A twist of fate makes life worth while,
You are gold and silver. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go,
I can't lose this feeling.

These precious moments, we have so few,
Let's go far away, where there's nothing to do but play.
You shown to me that my destiny's with you,
And there's no explaining.
Lets fly so high, will you come with me tonight?
In your dress, I confess, you’re the source of light.

The way you shine in the starry skies,
You are gold and silver.

I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go,
I can't lose this feeling.

A twist of fate makes life worth while,
You are gold and silver. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I said i wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.

And I just can't let you go.

2008-11-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE TOH YI HUI!!

2008-11-22T17:57:00.002+08:00

humph. i'm becoming more and more emo. i dont want to get to that stage, again. no no, not again.

anyway. dinner later with sisters and matthias! yay

and and, Batam trip next weeeeeek

2008-11-20T13:29:00.001+08:00

match against UWCSEA later. hmm. gotta leave sooooooon.

So let me go and you will find someone

2008-11-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

class BBQ yesterday was the best! foodfoodfood. charcoal. fire. cameras. photographs. i'm so glad everything worked out fine. i love you people (((:

stayover was great toooo. Val, Debbie, Denise, Donna & Jityong. mahjong. texas hold'em!

we got kinda hungry so we left at about 1.30am and walked to Rail Mall. the path there was somehow especially foggy which is pretty scary. Donna cabbed home. the rest of us had prata. benchiong joined us. headed home. texas hold'em again!

after that, jit and i couldnt take it. went to sleep while the rest played mahjong. hahaha.

woke up only to realise that everyone left. went back to sleep.

hmm. out today. lunch with Cherlywong. and then pool with Mao. hahaha. whoa Cheryl is the new pool superstar!

Mao left for home. Cheryl went for training. i headed for suntec to find... Natweeee! (cause she's working at bookfest there) ah Nat, arranging the books isnt so bad like child labour lah. at least you get paid you know hahaha

also went to find Lena working at Fox! hahahaha

headed home and had a good sleep on the bus.

i'm so bored at home now cause its only dad mum and i

i hope you're alright. i really hope you are.

2008-11-14T12:47:00.004+08:00

crap i've been tagged. omg 70 questions?!?!

1.How many texts are in your inbox?
374

2.When did your last hug take place?
hmm. i can't remember

3. Are you a jealous person?
jealous as in what? if its jealous of other people's possessions then, nope

4.Are you tired right now?
nopee

5.Do you chew on your straws
Yeah, bad habit. haha

6.Have you ever been called a tease?
um i think so?

7.Do you like to cuddle?
yeah i guess

8.Do you cry easily?
not really

9.Are you a heavy sleeper?
yeahhh

10.Where is your cellphone?
In front of me!

11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
yesss

12.Are you mad at someone right now?
nope

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?
no

14.What makes you laugh out loud?
eh. lots of stuff.

15.Who was the last person you talked to?
talked to verbally? would be my dad. on msn, ying lun.

16.Name one person on your top friends who is most like you.
can name 2? haha. daryongshiwei and jeremytanwaikit!

17.Do you get butterflies when around the person you like?
nopeee

18.Will you get married?
depends on whether anyone wants to marry me in the first place. hahaha

19.When was the last time you smiled?
erm. i dont know!

20.Does anyone like you?
nah, i dont think so

21.Do you secretly like someone?
nope

22.Who was the first person you talked to today?
grandma!

23.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
eh. my besties from sji. hmm. and a couple of others

24.What are you NOT looking forward to?
A levels next year

25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
yeah

26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
take out my phone and take a photograph. hahahhahha. just kidding. i would just walk away

27.Are you a forgiving person?
yeah. forgive and forget

28.What's something you really want right now?
an ipod hahahaha

29.Do you fall for people easily?
maybe.

30.Have you ever fallen for your best friend's exes ?
nopeeee

31.What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
fried noodles from breakfast just now

32.Have you ever kissed anyone named Michelle?
michell gwee and michelle wong! HAHA nopeeee!

33.Who was the last person you drove with?
Colin's dad!

34.How late did you stay up last night and why?
1am. hmm. watching tv

35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
hell yeah. definitely

36.Do you prefer to call or text?
text. hahaha.

37.When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
one week ago

38.Who took your profile picture?
erm. the friendster profile picture is taken by Denise. msn is by... i dont know cause its a picture of borat!

39.Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Val

40.Can you live a day without TV?
yeahhh

41.Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
cheeks

42.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
kinda good. but my legs are still aching a bit

43.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
i can't remember!

44.How often do you see your ex?
erm?

45.Would you ever donate blood?
yeah

46.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yeah

47.Do you want someone dead?
nope

48.What does your last text message say?
"hahaha you retard. hmm. Anyway, what did Denise say? "

50.What are you thinking about right now?
sarah! who's in Cebu. i hope she's alright

51.Do you wish someone was with you right now?
nope

52.What time did you go to sleep last night?
1am

53.Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
can't remember.

54.Is someone on your mind right now?
Yeah.

55.Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
erm. i think so. was in there for less than a minute i think hahaha

56.Who was the last person to text you?
Val

57.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
nopeeee

58.What are you listening right now?
Holiday by Boys Like Girls

59.Did you sing at all today?
yeah

60.When's the last time you cried?
fucking same question

61.Who were you with yesterday?
hockey team!

62.Do you miss anyone?
not really

63.Who was the last person in your bed?
erm. my dad

64.Have you ever drank with your number one?
whats number one?

65.If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
erm yeah haha

66.Do you want someone you can't have?
nope

67.When did you last talk to your brother or sister?
talked to Sarah last night. dajie, sunday i think

68.Where were you at 2:02 am this morning?
on my bed, sleeping!

69.Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
Nope. :D

70.Do you want to tell someone something?
not really i think

Bonus question. Who do you want to tag?
your mum. jeremy. daryl. naren. ying lun. belmond. hahahaha

2008-11-12T20:26:00.005+08:00

i dont know why but i feel moody today. humph.

even a Zinger burger didnt help.

speaking of burgers, i think Burger King's quad burger looks extremely good. i want to try it sooooon

omg, 6 patties! ownage i tell you

hockey match tmr against UWC. i hope it'll be a great game.

its been raining really heavy. rainrainrain

i'm gonna have a good sleep tonight.

2008-11-11T13:14:00.004+08:00

let's start from friday. hmm.

back to school to get final results (promo+midyears combined). um did quite okay? yeah. but Denise, Donna, Gareth & Eric can't promote. along with a few of my other friends from other classes. and the worst part is that there are NO SUPPLEMENTARY PAPERS and NO PROVISIONAL PROMOTION just because OUR BATCH IS SMARTER. WTF?? i mean, what stupid reason is that? i think that's utter rubbish seriously. some people can't promote cause they miss by one grade or worse, by one mark to jump a grade. what the heck man. omg, can someone knock some sense into the principal pleaseeeee.

anyway. after school was down to town with classmates. hanged around for a while before heading to The Cathay to watch Quantum of Solace with daryl, jeremy, ying lun, shawn and zi xiang! yay so great to catch up with them again hahahaha. hmm. the movie was okay? um. half the time i didnt know what was going on cause there were so much talking and suddenly new characters kept coming up. eh. but the Sony Ericsson phone which Daniel Craig was using is damn cooool. i want it! and eh, the Bond girl ain't hot at all. hmm overall i would give the moive 3.5 out of 5 stars.

after the movie was cards, cards and more cards from dhoby ghaut underground pass to paradiz macs hahaha. asshole daidee and bridgeeee. afterwhich, daryl and slut left early. ying lun and shawn went with their friends to NYP for training? haha.

jeremy and i then walked to marina square. freaking hot i tell you hahaha. walked around suntec and marina square. talking about anything under the sun. looking at stuff. hmm. bus home and yeah. that ends the day i guess.

saturday was spent doing almost nothing. church in the afternoon. and at about like 5.30pm, Naren told me there was a gig at 7pm outside Bukit Timah Shopping Centre and Paolo's band is playing! sounds cool so heck yeah, bathed, dinnered and headed down. hmm. they were not bad. haha. met the 2 Marcus and Belmond and Jaslin and some people from CJ.

left at about eight to jeremy (yeung)'s house to watch arsenal-manu. great game. but it wasn't man united's day. ah well. went home disappointed. haha.

sunday was church in the morning which dajie drove us to church. lunch and then street soccer at Singapore Poly with church friends. great fun. hmm. dajie came to fetch me home. rushed and went for math tuition. damn shit.

yesterday was great fun. but damn rain. humph. hockey match in the morning at NYP was cancelled. rain was tremendously heavy. walked around NYP. the place is hugeee. hmm. left and headed to vivo to meet classmates and friends! (val, debbie, grace, DENISELOHMINER, clarine, vera, naren, changyi, raymond, yuheng, keane, ryan&weiliang)

headed to sentosa! gareth joined us later. played frisbee. dog&bone. captain's ball. played water. take photos and all. hmm. washed up and jityong came when we were leaving. ah man ):
and the funny thing was, when we came it was raining and we left when the rained stop hahahaha.

dinner at Marche which i didnt buy anything. haha but i still kop food from grace and val. maybe next time i should go out and eat with them more often cause most of the time they cant finish their food. hahahhaha. kidding!

cards cards and more cards. yay. hmm. bus home which i had a good sleeeep.

and last night was one shit night. everything's so cooped up in my head i was about to burst. damnit, mum you're fucking irritating. stop trying to fucking control my life. i'm 17 years old and i know what to do. fuck you. i hope you're reading this. i really hope you do.

my body clock is getting screwed up. i sleep at 12plus 1am and wake up 11hours later

stop being lazy

2008-11-07T21:34:00.001+08:00

it ends today. it ends tonight

what is left of you are just memories.
they will stay on forever
all the things you did.
all the things you said.
all the times we spent together.
they are now memories.

sure, i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you teasing me.
i miss talking on the phone with you.
i miss texting you, not caring if i exceeded my limit or not.
i miss the warmth of your hands.
i miss holding you close by my side and telling you everything's okay.
i miss your words of encouragement.
i miss your hugs.
i miss your kisses.

i miss you.

let's move on.

2008-11-06T22:54:00.003+08:00

PW officially end today!!! yes i'm so so happy! i'm so glad for my group. i think we did a fabulous job. well done guys! looks like the months of hard work and meetings and interviews and stay-back-after-school to discuss and gossiping (AHEM, girls) paid off!

tmr is the release of promotional results. or rather, our confirmed overall results. i'm sure everyone would be promoted. pleasepleaseplease.

hmm. Quantum of Solace tmr with the guys. hopefully i can make it for the 12.45 show. ah damnit. tmr's thingy better end early early.

and i've been tagged by Val, Grace and Naren to do some stupid quiz damnit. always like that lah! hahaha

1. Do you have secrets?
um. yeah i guess.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
hell yeah (:

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
mmhmm yupp!

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
smart move Naren, i would do the same! but i'll maybe you 60% to invest! and save the rest. spending only on what i need. oh, and donating to charities and giving some to my siblings and parents!

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
i doubt so. i think its really hard.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone

7. Who do you idolise?
no one but Jesus (:

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
commit suicide. hahahaha. nopedy. just move on

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
you. and PW is over!

10. Do you have any regrets?
nope. i try to live my life without any regrets. but its hard though

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
10 years older, definitely.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
family. friends. you

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
married but poor.

14. What is your favourite colour?
greeeeen

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
yeah

16. What would you do if someone whom you hate ask for your forgiveness?
well. i'll forgive

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
yupyup

18. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
shit this's a hard one. hmmm... i'll tell you another day hahahaha

19. 6 people I have tagged:
jeremy
daryl
ying lun
belmond
natweeeee
mao

2008-11-02T20:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday was quite a great day. chem tuition at Caravan. Alex was there! haha. we talked a lot, as usual. and i think the teacher doesnt like us cause we talked too much. haha.

homed. and watched Enemy Of The State with Mum&Dad! it was great cause it had been a while since we watched a movie together. anyway, the movie was excellent. Will Smith and Gene Hackman were FABULOUS.

oh oh. and on TV was also this ABBA greatest songs countdown. haha damn nice! i love SOS. haha. old is gold. hmm!

www.hotel626.com ! go play it!

i'm sleeeeepy. i need chocolates.

and a box of 20 chicken McNuggets.

2008-11-01T12:33:00.005+08:00

2 nights out for dinner was great fun! (but burnt a hole in my wallet)

well. anyway.

thursday night out was with Jeremy, Daryl, Ying Lun and Shawn! my bestest buds. you guys rock my world! (:

hmm. Met up with jeremy first. hanged around taka with manda and her friends. eh. we spent like almost 2hours in taka! well, at least we had a massive catch up session and a great talk (: thanks brudder.

Waited till about eight cause the other 3 of them had training. teppanyaki for dinner! whoa beef with chilli damn shiok bo! hahaha. after dinner was cardscardscards! sat outside ngee ann city there to play cards. i think we're officially some card-crazy gang. anyway. asshole tai-dee! asshole revolution siol.. plus. 99! whoo my favourite game, now. but walau, always kill me first. idiotttt!

after cards fun, time to go home. rawr. bid farewell to Daryl. bus with jeremy, ying lun and shawn. haha. 190 wait for 54 minutes... hmm! and. TRANS island bus at the bus stop ah.

all in all, it was a great night! hope to see you guys soon again! (:

friday night was out with classmatesssssss. Val, Debbie, Denise, Jit Yong and Pok! wanted to eat at newton but change to cafe cartel then change to pizza hut. in the end, settled for pastamania. damnit wasted my money on the pizza. sucks ttm. ugh. next time, just eat hawaiian luh rooo. hahah.

um. cards after that. asshole tai dee and bridge. hmm. bus with jityong. yes Denise, we're gaysssssss ttm! haha. anyway. good talk on the bus with jit (: thanks.

the night ended on a high. but imma bit tired. humph.

bloooddrunk is damn niceeee. listening to the album for.. the 5th time. only!

okay quiz time...

Name 20 people you can think of right now:

1. Jeremy tan wai kit
2. Daryl ong shi wei
3. Su Ying lun
4. Shawn yeo
5. Val
6. Debbie
7. Grace
8. Tan Chien ming
9. Huang Jun jie
10. Wolin Cong
11. Ang Jit yong
12. Sheryl Yeo
13. Cheryl Wong
14. Naren
15. Belmond Lee
16. Denise
17. Donna
18. Lizanne
19. Jerome Mao
20. Yu Heng

How did you meet #4? Shawn
sji 335 (2006), 435 (2007) ! take-bus-home-together + soccer buddy. (haha this sounds gay)

What would you be if u never met #1? Jeremy
whoa! then... i wont be so racist. hahahaha! okay honestly, i'll be sad!

What if #9 and #20 dated? Jun Jie and Yu Heng
Very nice! Wow!

Describe #3. SU YING LUN!
you're one funny guy! you rock man!

Is #8 attractive? TAN CHIEN MING!
HAHA. yessssss. when he throws the discus, the girls go wild!

Describe #7 Grace
blur. hahaha. okay lah. she's nice!

Do you know any of #12 family members? Sheryl Yeo
uh nopedy!

What would you do if #18 confesses to you that she likes you? Lizanne
HAHAHA. no way man! she's got a boyfriend already!

What language does #15 speak? Belmond
English! and chinese too. ah, chinese pro !

Who is #9 going out with? Jun Jie
i dont know!

How old is #16? Denise
17 years old but has a brain of the 2 year old. hahahaha

When is the last time you spoke to #13? Cheryl Wong!
hmm... thursday!

Who is #2's fav. band/singer? Daryl ong!
MLTR! or. we the kings. ah, his music library got 10000+ songs omg

Would you ever date #4? Shawn
of course! hahaha

Would you date #1? Jeremy
hell yeah! gay forever ttm!

Is #19 single? Jerome Mao
i'm not sure!

What is #10 last name? Wolin Cong
Cong? Wong? Sheng Lin. hahaha

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11? Jit yong
Hahahaha. we're gay so, yes!

School of #3? Ying Lun!
SA!

Where does #6 live? Debbie
Eunos! so.. far....

What is your favourite thing about #5? Val
haha! everything (:

Would you think of killing #14? Naren!
yeah man, all the time. hahaahah kidding lah bro!

Tag 5 people
Jeremy
Daryl
Naren
Belmond
Natweeeee

2008-10-29T21:31:00.001+08:00

Say the word and i will sing for You
Over oceans deep i will follow
If each star was a song
And a breath of wind, praise
It will still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live
I simply live, for you

No one else but You, Jesus

2008-10-29T13:18:00.003+08:00

i had a dream last night.

i dreamt that we were somewhere. and you told me that you dont love me anymore. and then, we started running away from your parents.

it was quite hilarious actually.

i once told you that my dreams usually came true. but i hope this one won't.

forgive and forget. why is it so hard for me to do so?

2008-10-28T18:26:00.009+08:00

i know i'm not good enough for you.
i know i'm not as perfect as he is.
but its okay. really.

Maybe it would be better for you to find someone else.
i won't hate you. i will never hate you.

i feel like i've been used. like. whatever i've done was never appreciated. and whatever feelings you had for me were lies.

Maybe. Just Maybe.

i feel like the biggest loser in the world right now.

i dont want to hurt you. i dont want to see you sad

2008-10-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

damnit Reuben. stop being so lazy. damnit

One man's meat is another man's poison.

damnit. get that into my head!

i dont want. i dont want to quarrel. i dont want to make you sad.

maybe. just maybe.

2008-10-27T11:56:00.002+08:00

aight, i'm back from Malacca! reached here yesterday evening. had a great time catching up with my cousins and relatives. and and Dad brought along his SLR! so fun using it to take photos! haha.

hmm. PW meeting soon. Going back to school tmr. for chinese lesson! ahhhhhh.

something's amiss. i know. there's a feeling deep inside. but i'm not going to let it show. i'll be myself. i'll be who i am. i am God's child, created in his image, for Him alone. no one else but Him.

change, is the only constant.
how ironic but true isn't it? change. people change. i think you've changed too. something in you have changed. and i dont know what.

i'm baffled.

2008-10-22T21:04:00.002+08:00

got back my results. hmm. promoted! seems like my hard work paid off. and God really helped me.

J2 seems scary. cant slack. and everything would be taught real quickly. the important thing is to keep up and manage my time well. which of course, i'm not good at.

oh man, i feel really really sad for those who cant make it ):
please, moderation moderation moderation! then they can promote.

hmm. i finally got Blooddrunk. listening to it now. its damn good. the style in this album is different though. its more upbeat and thrashier. i like the Follow The Reaper album! haha. but nevertheless, Blooddrunk is great listening.

anyway. there was a trip to SAFTI or OCS today. it was really great. an eye-opener. learned a lot of stuff. hmm. that's where i want to be in 2 year's time! that is if i can make it. haha

pw is being a whore/bitch/bastard/fuck/ji bai/any-vulgarity-you-know-of. haha. arggh damn waste time! nevermind, final hurdle. OP! cant wait for 6 november. haha.

Deep inside, i'm just a lonely man.
Maybe the world is really this harsh and unfair.

2008-10-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

one day, i'm going to get out of this fucking country. i'm gonna fucking live on my own.

2008-10-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

i fell in love with acoustic guitar again (:

ah shit, i've fallen sick. rawr

2008-10-12T15:30:00.002+08:00

Eagle Eye was absolutely fantastic. i love the storyline. plus the action like cars getting wrecked, buildings destroyed and Jerry Shaw dodging bullets and all sorts and miraculously escapes alive.

the super-computer is called Aria but i thought it was arya. hahahaha. overall, the movie was really good. and so was the company -- Dajie and Sarah! Fish&Co. for dinner and Andersen's ice-cream for desserts. Dajie's treat! thanks!

and the pizza hut lunch at marina sumed up a great friday (:

satuday was great too. vivo and movie! (hey why you touch my nipple!)

i went to West Mall today after church wanting to buy guitar strings. but damnit, the music shop closed down. it transformed into a manicure shop. rawr!

next, i went to Sweet Talk to get bubble tea. i wanted milk tea. i think the aunty heard me said green tea. then i told her red tea. i thought red tea is milk tea! omgggg. shit.. they're different. okay i'm sooo noob. haha.

prison break is damn nice. Daryl and i were talking about it last night. T-Bag's latest catch-phrase is no more good morning teddy... its, "Hi i'm Cole Pfeiffer, P-F-E-I-F-F-E-R"
HAHA. omg darylongshiwei makes me laugh my ass off hahaha

okay. i'm tired.

2008-10-09T03:57:00.003+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

yesssssss finally! a load off my back. yay yay yay. i'm so happy!

and and THANK GOD FOR HELPING THROUGH ALL THE PAPERS

hmm. the last paper, chem was the hardest among all the subjects. rawr. the organic chem questions were total bull. freak i hardly understood them. oh well, its over already. nothing i can do about it.

anyway, to celebrate the death of exams and to release the stress within, we went out and had fun! yeahh. hmm. the people who went (in alphabetical order, babes to hunks) : Debbie, Denise, Donna, Grace, Val, Chang Yi, Colin, Eric, Gareth, Naren, Raymond, Yu Heng and Roooooooooooooooooooooo

haha. bugis for lunch. after which the babes and hunks spilt. babes went shopping. Raymond and Yu Heng went home. the rest of the hunks went to paradiz to play lan. but gareth and i didnt bring a shirt. so while the rest played lan, we sat at macs and ... talk cock and discuss the chem paper!! HAHA.

Naren and Gareth left, had to head home to study for Tamil and Malay. hmm. met the babes at cine for The House Bunny! omg chic flick! i watch a CHIC FLICK!!!

the movie was... quite alright. funky. the main character is freaking bimbo! hahahaahahhaha. i couldn't stop laughing at her heretics.

anyway, after the movie, hang around. walked here there everywhere. and dinner.

home and tired out! viwawa bridge too!

shit i'm hungry.

2008-10-03T12:56:00.002+08:00

mug!

productive studying the past 2 days. at home on wednesday and yesterday at vivo with Val. tuition at night was useful too.

2 more days to the H2 papers! the final lap. gogogo!!

i want to study in Berklee. haha jokeeeeee

reminder to self: buy guitar strings lah damnit

2008-09-30T19:19:00.002+08:00

i dont know why but i've becoming petty. petty over little things. ahhh shitttt

GP yesterday was alright. except for the summary. today's geog was erm, okay. crapped quite a lot. and chinese was, anyhow do. haha

i'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
when its all about You
its all about You, Jesus

God works in mysterious ways.

and i may be switching over to lj soon

2008-09-28T12:40:00.002+08:00

i guess i'm just not good enough for you.

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And i know i'll be okay
Though my skies are turning grey

2008-09-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there with you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2008-09-14T18:39:00.004+08:00

i hate you i hate you i hate you. i hate you, exams. screw off please. i cant wait for you to get lost. rawr.

shit. the stress is piling up. the need to promote. a bare pass would make me glad. i just dont want to retain. study study study. the work seems never-ending. the light at the end of the tunnel is ever so dim.

ah. listening to Children of Bodom now. hopefully it'll make me feel less stressed.

cause it gets more painful everytime i die

speaking of Children of Bodom, i've not bought their latest album, Blooddrunk. oh, and BFMV's Scream Aim Fire too. shucks.

anyway, on a lighter note, it feels so damn good to be playing bass. i've not touched that instrument for like, 2weeks? yeah. the feeling was, heavenly? haha. holding the bass line down, maintaining the rhythm, doing appregios, scales and moving up and down the fret board. yupyup. but i want to remind myself that i'm not playing for anyone, i'm not playing for myself, i'm not showing off... i'm just playing for God and leading the church to worship Him (:

2008-09-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

i think... the girl who is crazy enough to fall for me should be sent to Woodbridge (:

oh. and a miracle happened today. The Straits Times published an article on the local metal scene. wow.

damnit, We the Kings went mainstream.

and i'm addicted to Time is Running Out by Muse.

Bury it 
I won't let you bury it 
I won't let you smother it 
I won't let you murder it 

But our time is running out 
But our time is running out 
You can't push it underground 
You can't stop it screaming out

2008-09-12T00:30:00.000+08:00

thanks for coming (((:

2008-09-07T20:47:00.001+08:00

I think I'm too horny for my own good.
I will change. And not be soooo horny. (((:

2008-09-07T13:12:00.003+08:00

when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are king above the floods
i will be still and know You are God

omg. there're like three weeks left to promos!!

and there's new timetable. two o'clock is the latest that school ends. yay so that means there's more time to study. come on t33! let's work hard for promos and dont retain! there's still time to buck up!

alright, i'm rewatching Full Metal Alchemist. haha, its damn nice!

so... studystudystudystudy,fullmetalalchemist,studystudystudystudy!

heh. great way to relax

2008-09-03T19:08:00.003+08:00

'cause i'm sick of everybody else

ugh. i dont want to hate. i dont want i dont want.

reminder to self : What Would Jesus Do?

after He was convicted of a crime He did not commit, He was mocked at, whipped, caned, spat at. all this in public. He was then made to carry His cross to the place of cruxifiction. When He was hung on the cross, He did not hate His enemies. He even pleaded with God to "forgive them for they do not know what they were doing".

hmm. i want to mend this extraordinary relationship with Jesus and continue on the awesome journey with Him, picking up from where i left off.

i want to i want to. i'm trying. but its so hard.

2008-09-02T23:09:00.002+08:00

omg. i only got 110 dollars this month. wtf man. $150 minus $10 (borrowed in advance), minus $20 for some fucked up shit on national day.

so thats $120. today spent $10.

so.... $110.

$110 divide by 31 days.... about $3.50

omg $3.50 a day. wtf. how to survive. seriously, my mum is FUCKED UP. how do you expect me to save when you're giving me so little? and i dont even have enough money to eat, how to grow?

i know she doesn't want me to go out often so she often cut allowance but then... i know my limits right. not like i go out every single day.

and when i go out, i'll make sure i study at home or go out to study. if not, i go out just to chill and have a little fun. i mean, life isnt all about studying right.

wtf

fuggggggggggggggg

2008-09-02T20:13:00.004+08:00

gp lesson in school this morning. towned after that with naren and nat fern.

naren pierced his tongue!

headed to holland v after that.

cabbed down to vivo. elian's brilliant idea of running away from 2 pestering girls. rawr waste money!

haha. studied at PCC. walked around. toys r us! hahahaha

alright. mugmugmug!!

2008-08-31T18:23:00.002+08:00

hmm. i guess what Lizanne said was right, i'm too nice. too nice for my own good i guess

just something random

2008-08-31T00:01:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!!

thanks for being a part of my life for the past 15 years! rock on sis!

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dinner in the evening at some chinese restaurant in tiong bahru with family, cousin Michelle and her husband, Dustin.

after dinner... Ben&Jerry's at Dempsey Road!!

sarah looks damn funny!

2008-08-29T10:42:00.000+08:00

today was fun. teachers' day celebrations.

went back to sji after that. met up with the ever-retarded-crazy-and-mad 435 people. hahhaha.

yay great time catching up and all. saw a few teachers too!

went to ccab after that with the soccer people + jeremy + christopher.

soccer was fun. haha.

went to macs at serene centre for .... lunch at 5pm! hahahaha.

played bridge there. and bullied yew tong. haha. eh sa seems damn fun cause of the cranky people like SU YING LUN, DARYL ONG, SHAWN YEO and TAN YEW TONG. hahahahahaha

but cj's fun too! (:

anyway headed home and crashed.

2008-08-26T20:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT WEE!!

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Pictures!

Mr. Chan!!

the 2 gentlemen always bully the little girl in the middle. hahahaha

2008-08-24T18:56:00.003+08:00

alright i'm damn lag. lee chong wei lost. lin dan is too damn good, seriously.

USA beat Spain in basketball! Team Redemption redeemed!

Olympics end today!! closing ceremony later! yeah haha.

wah fug, didnt study for the past few days. was damn tired on weekday nights i dont know why

yesterday was projectS day (note the S). yessss PW and Econs project. omg i almost died. projects are a freaking waste of time lah. the only good thing is that i get to go out and socialise hahaha

reached home at around nine i think. bathed. and dajie and sarah asked me to walked with them to videoezy at railmall cause the path there is pretty dark. ehhh walau, dajie why didnt you pass your driving!! rawr. haha.

anyway. rented Step Up2. and got White Chocolate Dream from CoffeeBean too. very nice!

got home, ate dinner and watched Step Up 2 . haha. the dance moves are AWEEEEESOME.

ahhh i think i'm falling sick. ugh. flu since morning. eh it was damn the cold in church ! omg i was dying.

i want to go!

2008-08-17T18:26:00.003+08:00

tonight, Malaysia would be watching the badminton finals between Lin Dan and Lee Chong Wei.

meanwhile, Singapore would be watching the table tennis finals. yeah. quote mr seah (my math tuition teacher) : "Singapore's gonna get thrashed lah. seriously. it would be a miracle if they could get out alive"

hahahahaha he's damn funny.

anyway, i'm rooting for Lee Chong Wei!! i hope he wins the gold medal! (:

hmm. promos coming in... 6 weeks i think. omg

seriously cant wait for it to be over.

2008-08-15T20:39:00.003+08:00

omg. Val and Debbie had wisdom tooth surgery today. omg. damn scaryyyyyy ):

anyway. GET WELL SOON!! (:

okay, i do not want to have anything to do with my teeth from now onwards, after going through 3-half years of braces! i shall now take gooooood care of my teeth (:

haha. studystudystudy!!

2008-08-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

today was a good day.

i was superly high and retarded. in class and outside school.

haha. i was so bored in chinese lesson and so i want to freak Donna out. hence... i was trying to cry and laugh. so... its cry then laugh then cry then laugh...

haha but i kept laughing more than crying instead. ah well. at least it got Donna rolling her eyes and freaking out. haha!

anyways, after school. went down to Mount E. and Paragon Medical with PW group to... make an appointment with a plastic surgeon for an interview. wow. haha.

hmm. had chem tuition after that. the teacher was pretty good. yup

homed. and you spoiled my day.

love is watching someone die
so who's gonna watch you die?

2008-08-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE!!!

2008-08-11T14:31:00.002+08:00

I am REUBEN LIM and i suck.. I am fat, stinko and disgustingly horny.. Oh! And I have horns. :O
I hate myself to the max..
Oh.. And did I say this before?
VALERIE TOH IS THE HOTTEST GIRL ALIVE. (((:

&&& I miss my baby sooooooooooooo much.

2008-08-10T12:33:00.002+08:00

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:28-31

Lord, please give me wisdom and strength. help me to focus on my studies.

and and, SORRY Slayers for not making it for the match yesterday.

2008-08-09T10:01:00.000+08:00

i love you <3

'nuff said (:

2008-08-08T21:56:00.004+08:00

oh-eight-oh-eight-oh-eight!

National Day celebration! everyone's wearing the Step Up shirt with the blue design thingy on it. its quite nice lah, dont know why so many people say its fugly. hahaha

hmm. Naren was emcee for the event in school. he talked louder tsktsk. haha. ehh the parade march past was quite... pointless i guess. cause the UGO leaders were right in front and so the people at the back couldn't see whats going on. yeah, so we people at the back were quite clueless. haha ah well.

anyway, after the event in school, everyone (well almost, ahem, morgan and naren ah hahaha) walked to CCAB. yesssss walked there. the point? dont freaking ask me. hahaha

alright. reached there, went to the hall. then it was part2 of national day celebration. songs and songs and singings. but the thing is, the speakers were kinda lousy and couldn't really hear the songs clearly and i had totally no idea what mr christopher tay (the emcee) was talking about.

hmm. the councillors were damn enthu ('cept for Val, haha lazy!), they went up in front of the whole school and sing and dance to the songs. whoa. and they were trying to get everyone to stand up and be enthu.... but haha, nobody did. except for the ODACers and a few enthus here and there.

after that was the dance thingy. haha. and there was so little space to dance. and there was a mosh pit ! haha damn funny.

okay, so after the whole thing.... Val and i headed down to Adam Food Centre for lunch with Colin, Gareth, Arya, Jit and Eric. lunch was good. nasi lemak! (:

headed down to national library with Val. and and yeah sorrrrrry.

after that, went to plaza sing. met grace and keane for a while. hmm.

she went home. i went for jamming which was pretty good. band gonna go on hiatus soon ):

oh and thanks for telling me. i'll change k. i will. yupyup

'cause you make me smile even just for a while (((:

2008-08-06T20:30:00.002+08:00

Left to right: Denise's, Vera's, Mine, Alicia's, Nicole's, Shi Hui's, Colin's !

HOCKEY!!!!!! (:

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never Ending
Your glory goes beyond all praise
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out