It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
and i hate this, these fucking changes,
i'm up early on a saturday morning, having breakfast with mummy as i'm typing this. it kinda feels great to be up this early. like it is nice to enjoy the beautiful scenery and breathe in the fresh morning air. taking it all in and leaving all worries behind. the day has just begun and there's so much to look forward to.
6 more months to ord. can't wait! and for those who ord earlier than me, stop it ah don't make fun of me hahah my time will come!
and i can finally use blogger on this ipad. but the site is unresponsive wtf?!? like i got to tap several times on a link before it responds. like dumb sia. and typigng on here feels a bit weird cause i'm so very used to bb's qwerty. whenever i wanna type , . ! ? My left hand will automatically look for an 'alt' button o the left side. the same goes when i'm typing on the computer! OKAY I LOVE MY BB VERY MUCH K YOU GOT A PROBLEM?!!
chill chill.
take a step back and enjoy the wonders of this beautiful mess. life is too short to hold grudges and hate.
life's good thus far. or at least that is how i want to see it to be.
seasons change, people come and go. fact of life.
but i hate this fact.
not.thinking.too.much.
fuck distance, be here now.
i have always wondered what the world would be like if Adam and Eve did not eat that fruit back in the Garden of Eden. how different would the world be as we live in harmony with God, man and the environment? what would we be like, pure and without sin? maybe we would even be perfect versions of ourselves. there would be no hatred, jealousy, guilt, shame, evil and greed. instead, there would be love, joy, peace, harmony and we would live to the fullest. well, just a thought.
anyway i've been following the General Elections quite a bit and it has been really interesting with all the opposition parties standing up against the PAP. Also with all the flaming and accusations and rumours circulating on the internet, it has indeed kept me quite engrossed. A pity i can't vote in this coming GE, gotta wait for another 5 years! (or maybe less, hmm)
approximately 49 weeks to the end of NS. to be honest, the first year passed pretty damn quick and nevertheless i have learned much. i have met people i never thought i would meet, from different backgrounds and education. it is an amazing world out there, yet scary too. it is scary how people behave and what their character and personality are. it is like, some people are just fake and they might backstab once the opportunity presents itself. sigh, i really miss the simple and straightforward school life. mundane yes maybe, but it was much simpler and getting good grades and forming friendships was all that mattered.
deadmau5 this coming friday!! OHHH YEEAAAHHHH. GONNA BE AWESOMELY FANTASTICO (;
i can live without you but without you i'll be miserable at best.
i wanted to reply "like fuck" but decided to keep quiet and gave a small smile instead.
sigh.
2010 was one crazy year. new environment, new people, new friends in the army. and i'm pretty sure i wasn't the only one going through shit.
after several months in NS, i've come to realise that no matter where we are, we all go through shit, just different kinds of shit. i got to quit complaining and comparing. i got to adapt, survive, change, improvise and be contented with whatever little i have.
maybe life's like that. we're all in a pool of shit, swimming around and struggling to survive. some do, and some don't. and yet some manage to get out of that pool of shit and live in great contentment. okay this is getting shittily disgusting ahahah and i dont know what i'm talking about.
looking back at 2010, i wished that some things happened and some things didn't. but these wishes are futile now, aren't they? however right now i do know for sure that certain things had gone according to God's plan, and so will the things and circumstances that will come. come whatever may, i am not afraid.
anyway, 2010 ended on a happy note and 2011 has been brilliant so far. everything has been going on smoothly except for some bumps here and there. the usual politics and arrows and shit, working with people whom i never thought existed, power struggle and more shit, sometimes i just want to hide away. find a corner on this earth and just be with my family and bestest friends. this may all just be a dream, but sometimes dreaming is good cause reality is just too harsh.
so, the past few days of Chinese New Year have been fantastic! dinner with family, friends, lazing around at home and sleeping in. friendships of 7 years and counting, fucking love you guys!
14 more months. i can do this.
can't wait to start university and graduate in 2017 (which is absolutely far away ): )
ciao!
a long and tiring day you must have had at work. head back home and it's more work. family? you'll just leave them at one side. completing the report before tmr's deadline is way more important than spending time with your loved ones. work's done. everyone's asleep. weary and worn out indeed. you change out and switch off the lights before heading to bed and get your much-needed rest. before long, it is morning and another hectic day at work awaits.
is this the life you are living? day in day out, life revolves around work, work and more work. what about family and friends? aren't they way more important than work? all money in the world can never buy family love and the deepest friendship.
okay, i was bored. duty is boring. but i aint complaining. the DO is watching tv right now, he has been doing so for the past 3hours i think. haha.
i miss my friends. it's like they're a country away but in fact they're only a phone call away. the guys are in the army. the girls are starting/has started school already, new environment, new friends. sigh.
i'm listening to Dream Theater as i type this post. they're awesome.fantastic.brilliant.magnificent. simply unbeatable. such immense talent in this 5 man band.
indeed music has always played a huge part in my life. i love music, this wonder that God has created. the different frequencies and pitch of sound blending and mixing together to create 'music' and the singing voice of a human which not a single instrument can ever replicate and reproduce. and as technology advances, people start to explore the different ways music can be made and altered, as well as using it for multiple purposes.
anyway. it is august the sixteenth. one year ago, i was studying like crazy for my prelims. tuition, revision papers and night study. repeat.
honestly, it seemed like it was only yesterday that i had my prelims.
Team Slayers, we got to meeeeeeeeet please. it has been way too long. any of you reading this say 'AYE' !
monday has come to an end.
are you ready for the weekend?
ORD.
every NSF is looking forward to their ORD date. some coming soon, others still a long way to go.
my ORD date is 180412. (and the guys in my unit would tell me to print 2 calenders before i can ORD. HAHA)
every weekday morning i wake up and the routine repeats. breakfast. shower. rush off to camp. do stuff. bookout. home. and sometimes go out at night. weekends come and go. money down the drain. and then it's monday again and the routine repeats.
not that i'm complaining about the comparably slack army life that i have, it's just that i need a new meaning to my life right now. something to do. something to look forward to (other than the weekends). maybe here's a chance, to do something good for once. a chance to pay back to the community. to volunteer my arms and legs for the less privileged and the disabled, the young and the old, the tired and the weary, the lost and weak and those who need a second chance in life.
a chance to do something for God.
for the past 19 years i have taken my privileged life for granted. it's like i'm in a bubble. my own bubble. the friends i grew up with, the environment i live in, all trapped in this bubble. and i've yet to taste or get a glimpse of the outside world and the society outside this pathetic bubble of mine.
serving in the army has in some way brought me out of this bubble. i've met different people with different backgrounds. not the usual friends that i've known for the majority of my life.
army is just the first step. there is still university and finally the workplace and the society outside.
rather than saying that army is a waste of time, i shall look on the bright side of it and learn and grasp the uttermost out of it. meanwhile, with the spare time that i have, i intend to utilise it to the fullest!
ORD lo!!!!
(long long way lah)
well anyway, my life has been pretty simple and easy. let's just say that my army life is quite different from most guy's. it is indeed slack and confirm-wont-die but meanwhile it is a freaking waste of time. the only thing i look forward to everyday is seeing my retarded friends in camp and doing nonsense every now and then. hahahaha.
i want to quit the army! and start on architecture please, oh damnit. srsly cant wait to learn architecture!
dajie is leaving for Shanghai in about 2 week's time. she'll be heading there for internship. sarah's going to china too. leaving in september and will be there for 5 weeks. hmm i'll miss them much ):
19th birthday is coming this sunday. i dont know how to celebrate it. not that it is something significant. i want to celebrate with every single one of my friends cause i just miss them ): especially the guys. sigh, army.
i'm tired.ishouldsleepnow.
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, a]">[a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to b]">[b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
For this i have Jesus (:
one and a half weeks of civilian life. gotta make full use of my time! that means stop sleeping late and waking up late arrrghh. cant kick this habit.
cant wait to enlist into the army. finish it asap! slug it out for the government. well, soon to be MY government. gonna bid goodbye to Malaysia and switch over to singapore. so no more blue ic ):
anyway, congrats to those who POP this week! enjoy working for the govt for the next 1.6 years or so. i shall be joining you soon hahaha
Reuben
11/7/91
SJI '07
CJC '09
Church: ALBC
Jesus (:
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Man United!
NSF.
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